Blessed Assurance

cloud-897444_640It really isn’t enough to just be able to play the music. What we want is the confidence and control that allows us to play it, understand it, and even feel comfortable varying and modifying it on the fly. We want to be in the moment, with the music as our natural vocabulary, used in a conversation, both with the audience and with our fellow musicians.

We have all experienced this “flow” from time to time, seemingly able to calmly supervise the proceedings, unhindered by fast-moving events, panic or confusion. We can control time, at least internally, and place our ideas into this space.

How can we achieve this glorious creative trance consistently? 

I don’t think we can do this every time we perform, and even the most renowned artists often say it is a fleeting thing. That said, we can improve the odds that we will be comfortable and assured, even if we can’t expect brilliant moments every time we perform.

Let’s start with what goes wrong, and what those things mean:

  • Under-prepared: Sadly this is the obvious first issue, and all others are somewhat related to this. There are several different types of preparation, and any of these can cripple us when neglected. We will look at them below, along with some possible standards we can set for ourselves regarding practice and study.
  • Anxiety: Assuming you know the music well, this crisis can come from several sources: excessive thought, particularly repeated visualization of failure, leading to lack of trust in your preparation, or social concerns, such as “imposter syndrome.” (I’ve been through all these!)
  • Self-conscious: Related to anxiety; here we are attempting to see ourselves as we imagine others see us, complete with any scorn or disdain they might have. We seldom naturally assume everybody digs us! (At least I don’t.) For me, playing with other musicians is not usually an issue, but somehow playing for those same musicians as an audience is nerve-wracking.
  • Memory lapses: For me these manifest themselves as “blank” moments where it seems my brain has shut off completely, even after having played the passage many times. In truth, there are several issues leading to these, including the technical and emotional ones mentioned above. There is also the potential of “programmed hesitation” as an artifact of a flawed practice strategy.
  • Random digressions: Here, we have played the music many times, yet suddenly we find our hands playing some weird alternate dead-end thing that we have never played before, as if we had been possessed. This musical gibberish is seldom a good thing.
  • Panic: Slightly different than anxiety, more of an acute fight-or-flight moment rather than the simmering fear mentioned above. This often is the sum of all of the above issues, rendering us literally unable to play at all, for a moment. This has happened to me a few times when I had to start a piece; for some reason everything was gone, leaving me in the spotlight figuratively naked.


Practice Strategies

As far as preparation and technical command of our music, there are some ways we can make our playing stronger, if not “bulletproof.”

  • Study the most difficult parts first: go through the piece (or even the whole set) looking for the most challenging spots. This might sound obvious, but I have many students who insist on plowing through the whole piece every time they practice. This will build hesitation and anxiety as the tough spots loom on the horizon.
  • Refrain from full-tempo run-throughs or playing along with a recording if you are not ready. This will set you up for a “fail” and you will more easily visualize this disaster, since you just simulated it. Instead run sections and spots for a while, holding off on the full rehearsal.
  • Feel free to run passages very slowly, without concern for how soon you will achieve full-tempo. One ingredient of assurance is to have played a passage correctly a certain number of times, regardless of tempo.
  • Be able to sing the passage, even if you aren’t a vocalist. Knowing how it goes is a big part of being able to master it.
  • Find the patterns and shapes in the music; sometimes these are hidden from us when we read through casually; in most well-written music, there is a way to conceive of the ideas that helps, and others that confuse. Find the logic in the music.
  • Understand the harmony: Know the chord-changes even if you are playing a classical piece or if you are learning music by rote. You can’t speak a language unless you know the meaning of the words. Analyze the progression, the voice-leading.
  • Practice each point in the music as if it is the beginning. This is one of the main reasons I write fingerings in: it allows me to start anywhere. If you can’t start in the middle, you are not ready. This is a big one.
  • Find the transitions and hesitations and play through them. Play the end of one measure and the first beat of the next, if there is a glitch in between them.
  • For complex passages, practice them in an alternate meter. This might seem strange, but I often practice 8th or 16th-note runs that are naturally grouped in four as if they were triplets, and vice versa. Suddenly it sounds like a completely different piece, and this allows you to approach it anew.
  • Take your time: Of course, there are always deadlines and urgent last-minute gigs, but even then, the moments you are practicing have to be calm, outside of the world of time. Go at the pace you know works.

What about all that fear (and loathing?)

Unchallenged, these non-technical issues can lay waste to the best prepared gig, if they are allowed to take over your mind. Let’s take these on.

  • Avoid imagining yourself crashing and burning. It is very easy, when you make a mistake while practicing, to suddenly imagine that screw-up taking place in front of an audience. We do this in a flawed attempt to anticipate and head-off disaster. Instead, we make it more likely, and we experience all the humiliation in advance. Train yourself to come back to your practice space and out of this imaginary hell.
  • Try playing while distracted: Not a lot, but as a test of what will happen in a real situation. Use the data about what failed to guide your subsequent practice.
  • Realize that even the most admired artists are often as insecure and full of “imposter” feelings as you. It may even be that fame and adulation makes that worse. Don’t worry about elitist jerks and snobs; they are covering something up.
  • Surround yourself with people who respect you: Not always easy, since we don’t always have control over the situation, but in general, it is possible to distance ourselves from toxic individuals. Over time, our social anxiety will be reduced. Life is short; don’t spend it with people who make you feel unworthy.
  • Don’t define yourself by your lowest point. Everyone fails. When you sound the way you intend to, feel strong and smart, have time to think, this is who you are.

Finally, remember: It’s just music. Not a sport, not a war, not a fight or a contest.

What are your strategies to be confident and assured?

Practice: From the Hip

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When working on a passage of music, it seems like there can be two different mental states we can assume. The first, a focused, precise, detail-oriented one, is probably the typical one we think of when we think of the idea of “practice.” Indeed, this is the kind of concentration we cultivate when learning new things, and it is very effective. Within this state, many of the principles we discussed in our previous series on practice are employed, such as repetition, isolating problems, correcting technical issues and strengthening our muscle memory.

There is, however, another kind of practice that is absolutely necessary for getting our music performance-ready. I call this “from the hip.” In this mode, we experiment with what happens when we just “go” and play as if we were comfortable and confident. (even though we probably aren’t) In this state, we are cultivating flow and confidence, but more importantly, we are learning what happens when we “let go” a bit.

Of course, what happens when we do “lower our guard” is all kinds of mistakes, possibly even a complete train-wreck. While this seems like a losing proposition, it is not. The reason it is useful is that the nature of the mistakes we make in this mind-state will completely different than those we make during concentrated practice. This information about what our hands “want to do” versus what we need them to do is enormously valuable.

It’s also important to realize that this flow-state is much more akin to a live performance than the meticulous, thoughtful practice mode. We must spend time in this area to be prepared.

Meet in the middle

Once we develop our ability to practice in these two ways, it’s important to learn how to use them together to make our playing both accurate and confident. In general, the meticulous practice method needs to occupy the majority of our time, punctuated by interludes of “letting go.” This will allow us to learn the music thoroughly and correctly, but also give us a chance to experience how it feels to perform it, and learn from that experience, including the mistakes and memory-lapses that may occur.

The objective is to alternate these two approaches, eventually meeting in the middle; the different types of errors and thoughts that take place will eventually work themselves out, and we will be performance-ready.

Things to consider

  • Until the music is at least somewhat playable, there isn’t much point in attempting to “let go.” it is likely to be a mess, and we may become discouraged.
  • Playing “from the hip” is by nature imperfect, and we are looking for the pathways leading to errors, in order to redirect.
  • We perform best in the flow-state. Practicing only in a meticulous way will not preview that experience, so new unexpected mistakes will be “lurking.”
  • The flow-state is not to be confused with daydreaming or spacing out. It is rather a way of being “in the moment” in a relaxed, confident way.
  • The goal of all this is to bring the two approaches toward each other, eventually leading to both control and relaxed confidence.


The Composition Process – Live Online Class

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Do you find yourself getting “stuck” when you are composing? Not producing the work you would like? These are the issues we will discuss in this live online class.

We will look at the natural flow of a creative process, along with the ways this healthy routine can get stalled. No matter the style of type of music you choose to create, this set of tools and habits can be used to get things moving forward.

Topics include:

  • Understanding the natural routine of creative work
  • Knowing when to introduce new ideas and when to develop existing ones
  • Using models and influences appropriately
  • Common misconceptions about creativity
  • Why our work gets stalled
  • Typical pitfalls and trouble spots in workflow
  • Systems and routines to stay productive
  • Q&A session

The class will be held Monday, August 14th at 9pm EST. (6pm Pacific) for one hour. The introductory price of this class is $19. (future classes will be priced at $49.

The Composition Process - Online Class
The Composition Process - Online Class
A live online class on the composition process, focusing on strategies and routines to increase productivity and quality, while avoiding creative block and other issues.
Price: $49.00
Price: $19.00



  1. Upon purchase, you will receive an email with a link to register for the class. The link to register will generate another email with your link to enter the class.
  2. On a web browser, the link will prompt you to download the Zoom software, allowing live video and chat. This software will not harm your computer.
  3. If you wish to take the class on an IOS or Android device, you will need to download the free Zoom Cloud Meetings app.
  4. Once the meeting time arrives, you can log in using the link, and we will proceed.
  5. To ask questions, open the “chat” window and type your questions. (If your computer has opened Zoom as full-screen, the chat window will float above the video; click “exit full-screen” in the upper right corner and the chat window will be a separate pane.
  6. Feel free to join the FaceBook study group at

Class rules:

  1. Please do not record or redistribute the class or the materials from the class.
  2. Only the person who registered can participate.
  3. Questions may be submitted throughout, but please save more elaborate questions for the Q&A at the end.
  4. Self-promotion will not be allowed in the class.

Using a cheap computer mic with your audio gear


In order to do lessons on Skype or other video-chats, I need to pipe the sound of my grand piano, sequencer and other computer audio signals to the computer. For this, I use my MOTU interface and various preamps. I also need a headset mic/headphone so I can hear the other person, without putting their voice through the speakers (internet feedback/echo.) While there are high-quality head-worn microphones, I don’t think it is necessary for me to spend that much just for my voice in lessons.

Cheap computer headsets are everywhere, but with my setup, I need the signal to go through an XLR mic preamp, so I can include it along with the other audio going to the client. These headsets have an 1/8-inch plug designed for computer sound-cards. Upon doing some research, I found that these microphones require about 5v of bias power, delivered to the “ring” or middle conductor of the plug, with signal on the tip, ground on the sleeve.

The above picture  shows an adaptor I made with some soldering. I “sacrificed” a USB cord, which when plugged in to a phone-charging adaptor can deliver the 5v power. I then wired the signal to pin 2 of an XLR plug, while grounding pin 3. (“floating” pin 3 can invite RF interference, as the wire can act as an ungrounded antenna) A 22k current-limiting resistor was added between the power and the plug. (this may or may not have been necessary.)

Now, I can use the cheap, crappy headset mic with my otherwise decent audio rig!

Product Review: Waves Electric 88



As a keyboardist with a lifelong love-affair with the Rhodes electric piano, I’m always intrigued by new virtual instruments simulating that classic sound. The one I use most of the time I bought many years ago from a developer called Scarbee, and I have been pretty happy with it. (Scarbee products have been subsumed into the Native Instruments product line, and I assume those samples are still part of the “Komplete” collection.) When Waves came out with their version at an introductory price of $39, I decided to take a risk and order it.
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Musings on Composition and “Thing-hood”

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When does something start being a “thing?” When writing music, I find this transition to be a very important moment, a bit like a birth. When a piece achieves “thing-hood,” it now occupies a new place in my mind. Continue Reading…

Problems with Digital Piano Reproduction Live















Recently I played a gig where, for space purposes, I plugged my keyboard into a small PA system, along with the vocalist. The venue was very small, and there was no need or room for large speakers, and the volume would be low. This small PA did a decent job of making the singer sound good, but the piano sounded terrible. (at least to me) On this gig, it certainly wasn’t worth trying to fix the sound, but it brought up issues I constantly struggle with using a digital piano live.

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Two Computers











Working on orchestra or other large-ensemble music using a sequencer can be very taxing on a computer system in terms of processor power, memory and disk usage.

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The End of the Artist

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What are the factors needed to make art? or, more importantly, good art?
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The Big Lie, Part II











Content is King

…like this random rainbow dashboard picture. Publish articles, release free music, make YouTube videos. This is how we build our “tribe” and create “engagement,” thus building our “brand” and setting ourselves up for prosperity. I discussed the other Big Lie in a previous post.

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